Monday, October 29, 2012

The Depth Psychology of Chiron



I occasionally try to do away with Chiron. He is, after all, only the size of the Isle of Wight. But he keeps coming back, one way or the other. So although I’m not going to give him planetary status, I will generally pay attention if he is aspecting something important in the chart. Like in my own case, conjunct the Sun and square the MC and sextile the Moon.

But that still often leaves me stuck for something to say. Which ‘bit’ of us is he? It’s not enough to say ‘the wound’ because lots of bits of us are problematic and painful. Besides which, Chiron was a wise teacher for the main part of his life, it was only later on that he got wounded by the poisoned arrow, and was in pain to such an extent that he tired of living. Catch: he was immortal. But he sorted that, giving up his immortality in exchange for Prometheus being released from his torment.

Both Saturn and Chiron have been described as bridges to the outer planets, and that seems a fairly sensible thing to say, given their positions in the solar system, on the boundary between the visible and invisible planets. It is the invisibility (to the naked eye) of Uranus, Neptune and Pluto that gives them a different character to the inner planets.

The way I’m thinking about Chiron at present is that he is the principle of the wound in the sense of that kind of difficulty and pain that can only be addressed by listening to the outer planets: he is precisely that principle you get in depth psychology that says that it is through our intractable, painful bits that we find our souls.
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Imagine the outer planets as the molten core of the earth – uncontrollable, transformative and nuking everything in its path when it breaks through the surface crust. Chiron is that fissure deep underground, that fault line, through which the molten lava can erupt. And Saturn is the crust itself, the form of the earth, over which the lava flows. The outer planets are not always out of control and disruptive, particularly if we know how to listen to them. In this case Saturn is more like machinery erected at the surface to direct the raw power coming from below. An oil rig, something like that.

So Chiron is this fissure deep underground. It cannot be sorted on its own terms, and it cannot be understood in terms of surface mechanics, earth movers and such like, ordinary psychology. No, for there is always this threat from below, or what appears as a threat. The threat that is actually our souls if we are willing to go there.

So this is why Chiron often represents a part of life - depending on where he is in the chart – that doesn’t work very well. You cannot patch him up, because there is always that roiling underneath. I think Chiron conjunct the Ascendant can be particularly difficult. The Asc is our basic ability to express who we are and make our lives work. With this placement you can bumble along in life with nothing quite working, nothing ever going anywhere, and that can go on for decades. And the problem is that you’re trying to do ‘normal’, you’re trying to live your life like everyone else does, but somehow your heart is not in it, and you feel inadequate because of that. But once you go bugger that, there’s this thing I’ve always wanted to do, it’s not going to earn me much probably and I don’t know if I’ll be any good at it but I’m going to do it, then your life can start to work properly – not in ‘normal’ terms, but in terms of you feeling there is something essential that is falling into place.

So Chiron is a ‘wound’, but not an ordinary one. He only appears as a wound, and that’s why it’s said to be incurable, because you can’t cure a wound that isn’t a wound. What ‘cures’ it lies in making what is immortal in you mortal, just like Chiron himself did, giving earthly expression to that other drumbeat you’ve always heard.

The Chiron wound can make you feel like you don’t want to go on living, just like Chiron the centaur felt. But I think it’s a case of not wanting to live on particular terms, not if life has to be like this.

In 1999 I took ayahuasca a couple of times in the Amazon jungle, and it made me aware of what I think was Chiron. It was a sense of deep pain, which I would experience from time to time anyway, but it became clear that that pain was what grounded me, connected me to the earth, it had a sort of weight to it. And then I became aware that I learnt from it, it was an ongoing source of learning. And it wasn’t something that could be put into words and certainly not to be psychoanalysed. It was uncomfortable, but very creative, and not to be ignored.

Previous to that, in the early 90s, I had driven myself into a corner by pressurising myself to ‘achieve’. And I ended up realising, like Chiron, that I didn’t want to live on those terms, I didn’t have a will to live if it meant living like that. I didn’t feel depressed or suicidal or anything, I just knew that I had to find a different way of being. This was as transiting Pluto was squaring my natal Sun-Chiron. And it was, appropriately, to do with work, my Sun-Chiron being in the 6th House. So I’ve had to spend years undoing the notion of ‘achievement’ in the way I work (note I also have natal Chiron square MC) or pushing and pressurising myself. That may work for some people, it’s quite ‘normal’ in a way, but it ain’t going to work if Chiron is involved in the 6th and 10th Houses. So it means I ‘do’ less, but what I end up doing has a quality that it never had previously.

So Chiron I think has this unconventional, outsider, even scapehorse quality to him. If Chiron doesn’t aspect anything major in your chart, you may be able to ignore him. But if he say conjoins your MC then you probably have something important to do in the world, and the ‘career’ aspect of your life will never feel right as long as you judge yourself in conventional terms. You need to do what the outer planets want you to do, and that can take a long time to come to fruition – it’s not like deciding to become a plumber and getting on with it. What you do may not have a name.

Gordon Brown, the last UK Prime Minister, has Chiron conjunct MC. Everyone knew he wasn’t Prime Minister material, but he was determined to get the top job, and he made a hash of it. But he also has another side to him, he is a feelingful bloke, he wants to be of help. He doesn’t preen himself, he has more humility than say Blair (another Chiron MC man). But because he wouldn’t, couldn’t listen to his Chiron, he ended up in a conventional job, making a hash of it. And the same with Blair, look how hated he is. You could say his faith foundation is a blundering attempt to get it right with Chiron. And George W Bush - Moon conjunct Chiron, Sun square Chiron: the debate about him has not been whether or not he was a bad President, but whether he was the worst or only second worst!

So I think Chiron can be a sort of curse if you haven’t got the wherewithal to step outside of conventional life and its expectations and judgements – and that can be a really difficult call for many people – and let the outer planets decide how you’re going to live.

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12 comments:

Lin Cook said...

Thank you - timely post! I'm currently having real difficulty with Chiron in a chart. He is aspected by everything except Neptune and is not angular. Pivotal position linking grand cross and grand trine from Cap in eleven. This is a kind of 'exam' chart really as it's the first I've done in a long time and I don't know if I am good enough (2nd sat return) Anyway I'm going off to think about your post and hopefully it may lead to light and poor, patient client may get a decent deal after all -- thanks xx

leslee said...

I have Chiron conjunct my Descendant and opposite my Moon (both within 1 degree of the axis). Relationships were unbearably difficult for me, at least until my Chiron Return a few years ago. "Normal" relationships just wouldn't happen and it was like beating my head against a wall. Yet I couldn't seem to give up wanting to be in a relationship. I finally wound up with a real wounded healer type who after going through the ringer himself facilitates support groups for people with debilitating mental illnesses. I struggled the first year with doubts about being involved with him, but I kept being guided to stay and it's turned out to be the strongest and most lasting relationship of my life.

Dharmaruci said...

That's a great story :)

GB said...

Wow--how amazingly liberating!

I have Chiron in the 10th conjunct MC and it has been extremely depressing to not feel the connection to career. I have risen high in the ranks (sheer determination of a Taurus ascendant) but always disliked my profession. It has always felt like a life or death matter as Chiron the centaur felt.

Yes, it is a long time coming to fruition but let the outer planets do their thing!

Until your insight in this article I have never understood a way to heal this seemingly irreparable wound.

A million Thanks

LotusLady9 said...

In my natal chart, I have Chiron in my 6th square Saturn and also opposition my Ascendant,square my MC. So yeah, I always struggle with the will to keep on keepin' on! Thank you for your post. It really shed further light on some of my challenges. Prayer helps me a lot and sometimes I am blessed with further insight like from your blog. Thank you!

Anonymous said...

Chiron is currently exactly conjunct my Sun and exactly square my Neptune on my DSC. Another lesson that I do not need a man to make my identity. It is time to stand on my own. Peace to you.

Anonymous said...

"What ‘cures’ it lies in making what is immortal in you mortal, just like Chiron himself did, giving earthly expression to that other drumbeat you’ve always heard."

That fits my Chiron in Pisces conjunct SN in the 7th house. Taking the Pisces non physical (immortality you could say) and applying it to my Pluto-NN Virgo in the 1st house (the physical/body/earth) then throw in Mars and Uranus on the ASC just for a little extra umph or giving earthly expression to that other drumbeat (I play the drums btw).

misstyoga said...

Yours is the best interpretation I've heard for Chiron, the Wounded Healer--making the immortal, mortal. Brilliant and reassuring.

And your reference to Patti Smith makes my heart swoon!

Irene Dietrich said...

I can just say: thank you.
I have chiron squaring AC/DC-axis and opposing Uranus - so experienced exactly that troube you were describing. To see Chiron like a call whe don't listen to instead of a wound, is an interesting switch. And it fits to my experience.

Irene Dietrich

Anonymous said...

Keep writing...... this stuff is great. I love your style of insight regarding Chiron. Can I request a book? :-)

Sabina said...

A breath of fresh air. Thanks so much.

Anonymous said...

Many thanks for your refreshing aquarian insight! Just in time, and also very liberating for me! My Chiron in Pisces is conjunct my ascendant and square my MC. Yes, finding a suitable career has always been a real life struggle (Sun in Aquarius in 12th). All my life I was thinking that work/career was not meant to be. It just never worked out, it never really touched my heart/soul. But definately the missing link I was looking for was: 'giving earthly expression to that other drumbeat you’ve always heard'. So we go on.....!!